Nella is 4 months!!!

Nella is 4 months today!!! I cannot believe she has been in our lives for 4 months all ready!!! WOW~ Where does time go? To say that these past 4 months have been a blessing would be an understatement! She is so much fun! She is a cooing machine! Her little voices gets so loud! We love it! She loves life! I mean loves it! She is our bright eyed girl as she is always taking everything in! So fun! She really enjoys being outside and shopping..lol! I am serious she wants to check everything out when we are there...not sure where she gets that from!

She smiles all the time! She had her first giggle this month! Seriously, the cutest sound I had ever heard. It was uh, uh so cute! She has a new sound this week ut. She says it constantly and if you do it back to her then she does it back. So needless to say, we have long conversations. I find her talking to herself more...especially in the car...so cute! She is a heart melter! I love this picture...I think it actually captured how beautiful and sweet she is! Seriously, I cannot believe how amazing she is!

Today we celebrated my 27th birthday! How did I become 27...wow! We had a great day! My husband is beyond thoughtful and compassionate. He made me breakfast and gave Nella her 6 am bottle so I could sleep in! Then he went and bought an outfit for Nella for her to wear on mommy's birthday! It is the outfit above! :) It says I love you a whole bunch! He then planned a day for us to go to Brown County and hang out! We had lunch together and then shopped around in Nashville's adorable shops! Then we went to Brown County to hike!

It was truly an awesome birthday! I have to say it was the best ever! For those of you who know, this year was not the easiest in my life. There were many times when I would doubt that I would be a mom! I remember last year blowing out the candles and wishing that God would send us a child to love! When I was in the woods today, I was reflecting and talking with God. Even though at times this year was hard and many times I doubted what he was doing in our lives, I am thankful! Thankful I went through the pain and that I learned to trust God. I am ever so grateful that he brought Nella to us! Seriously, I still feel I am in a dream! I still cannot believe I am her mom because she is the sweetest, beautiful little girl I have ever met! Honestly, she is! It was a perfect birthday because I spent it with my family and realized that my wish that I wished for last year on my birthday candles came true! Her name is Nella! God is WONDERFUL!

I'm 3 months!!!!

WOW, our little lady bug is 3 months old! She is so awesome! I think so far, I love EVERY single stage. She is so interactive right now! She smiles and talks to mom and dad all the time!
She spent a lot of time with family and friends this month! We attended Leeapalooza! It was so fun celebrating Lee being in remission and we loved sharing her with everyone! Here is a pic of my mom and dad with her! Doesn't it just melt you? I never ever realized how much my parents loved me until I had Nella bug! Wow it is such a deep love, the kind that hurts in your stomach at times and makes you feel like your heart is going to burst at moments because you think that your love cannot grow for her anymore, but it does. The kind where you get goosebumps and smile just because she is the cutest little one ever.....so fun! But watching our parents with her has been so breathtaking. I can feel their love for her! It pours out of their bodies. Such big smiles and we love it!!!

I love putting her in her bumbo. She looks around and joins in on conversations now! Love it! You can tell she thinks she is such a big girl! So cute!

Nella loves laying on a blanket and taking in her world. She especially loves it when she has a little one to grab onto and coo too. She really enjoyed her blankiet time with Peyton! They kept holding hands....so cute! Peyton is our cousin and we are so excited to see them grow together!

She LOVES being read too!!! I mean loves it! Her eyes stretch so WIDE and she just listens and seems to take it all in! Matt and I think she loves life! She loves watching and learning. You can see it on her face! Here is Grandma Spencer and her reading! She looks pretty comfy:)

We traveled back to Kendallville for Daddy to be honored at the first East Noble Football game for being on the State Football team 10 years ago...WOW 10 years...doesn't feel like that long ago!!! It was so fun! Nella even joined Daddy out on the field. It was a blast seeing friends and being with family! She was so cute. She loved watching the movement on the field. Her eyes would stretch so wide!

Well we have had an AWESOME 3 months.....see you soon!!!!!!

My heart continues to melt

I look at her and I cannot believe she is here......and I get to be her mom. If someone would have told me someday she will be yours and you will be her mom, I wouldn't have believed them that I could have such a precious baby girl. It is hard to believe most days that I get to be a mommy to the prettiest girl I have ever seen!


This first picture is what her little hair looks like when I come her hair out in the morning. She loves it! She loves having her hair touched and played with. She always smiles when I say, who is the prettiest girl in all the world and we say Nella......We had just said that when I snapped this picture......maybe a potential ham for the camera :)

Here our little love is at the State Fair for the first time. She is hanging on to Grandma Spencer. I love this picture. What a snuggly love! She loved the fair. She really liked looking at the animals and the people. She is SO alert and wants to see everything and take it all in. What a sweet little love. She looks so cute in her hat. It is SO big on her

Here is a pic of Nella and I before we went over to my cousin's house. I love that we both caught smiling in this one......She is the light of my life. I cannot tell you the amount of love I have this little girl. My heart feels like it is going to burst somedays for how much I love her. I love every moment of being a mom. It is hard to go to school and teach, but I know that is where I am suppose to be too, but man I fly out of school now to get to see my lady bug and if you know me...I didn't use to do that...but I don't want to miss a moment with her. I love Miss Sarah and she gives me such peace of mind because she loves Nella so much too!!! She is fabulous!!!

After church one day, Nella and I hung out on the porch. she loves being outside and she takes it all in. She likes putting her feet in the grass and looking at the trees and flowers. Sometimes we see dogs or people walk by.

Seriously, everyday I think to myself why does God love me so much.....honestly to think he helped bring our momma angel and us together and he lead us to Nella. He chose us to love her. It is amazing how much he loves us! Some of favorite things she is doing now is smiling, her noises and how she gets so loud and it surprises herself, splashing in the tub and kicking her feet, watching her in the bumbo she thinks she is such big stuff, how her eyes stretch so wide when she is excited, and her being on the changing table....we have deep conversations up there. I don't want to miss a moment with her. I try to take in every single thing she does. I want to cherish it and remember it forever. I want to share to her about all the little things she does.....being a mommy is so good!!!! God is so good!!!

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3 AM

Nella has only been getting up once in the night and it is for her 3 AM feeding....to tell you the truth I love the 3 AM feeding....I love that time with her. It remind me of how little she still is.....I love the snuggle time with her.

She drinks her little bottle and then we snuggle. We snuggle in the darkness and quiet. It is different than during the day when it is so bright and busy. Where I feel like I have a million things to do, but I just want to sit with her and sing and talk. But at night we just sit there in the darkness and rock. I love the time. I could put her down right away, but I just savor this moment with her. It is crazy to think in 10 months she will be busy and all over the place and we probably won't have this snuggle time. There in the darkness, I think (dream) of what our lives will be like together. I think Mothers and daughters have a special bond and I am so excited about what our relationship will be like. I think about tea parties, dress up days, Mommy and Nella dates, and make believe play. I dream about girl talk and her having her first boy crisis. I hope she trusts me enough to turn to me and want a mom's opinion. I know there will be days when I will not be her favorite person. I think about those too. I think about sweet sixteen party, her first date, prom dress shopping, senior pictures.....I am so excited about this season of my life.....but for now we just snuggle and I smell her sweet little baby smell.....and enjoy the moment of the 3 AM feeding.....

These pictures are from her newborn photo shoot.....they melt me and especially the last one....I think it describes how we all feel....amazingly blessed and SO in LOVE with each other!!!!!

God is so GOOD!!!

Nella is 2 months

Our little love is 2 months old today! Wow!!! I cannot believe it! She is so beautiful. Nella smiles so much and is such as sweet little girl. I love my little morning girl. She gets up everyday at 6 am! I love walking into her room and finding this bright eyed little girl so excited to see me! She is wanting to hold her head up all the time. Today, Miss Nella and I went to target. I thought I would put her in the Ergo to carry her around....nope, she wanted out so she could see where she was and what was going on...so cute! I have loved this past two months with my little girl. I am so thankful she is here! I am getting sad that summer is coming to an end as I wil have to go back to school....I have missed my students, but so enjoyed my time with my little girl. Nella is truly a joy! Matt and I are so blessed.

Things I (Nella) have accomplished in two months:

*flown on an airplane from Utah

*had so many smiling faces visit me

* Had 3 showers

*Started Smiling

*started making little noises

*Started grabbing everything...especially mommy's hair :)

*Gone to the pool

*Had many playdates

*Gone to the park

*sleeping in my crib

I cannot wait to see what I do next month!

For this is the one we have waited for.....

I have waited to write this post because I knew it would be SO emotional......well here goes! As a little girl, I dreamed about becoming a mom. I was the little girl who constantly wanted to play house, took my baby dolls to the grocery store, and always wanted to hold the babies in my family. I loved babysitting. I loved being with kids! I dreamed of being a mom of having a little one who needed me or I could love with all my heart......Nella Grace is EVEN MORE THAN I COULD HAVE EVER DREAMED. Being her mom is the most amazing gift God could have ever given me. I have no idea why he chose me to be her mom....but we are SO SO SO blessed....God is so good! He is amazing!!!

I feel like I am in a dream every day of my life. I want more and more time with her! I feel like any minute I will wake up and she will be gone! I cannot believe she is REALLY here! She is our girl! She is the most beautiful little girl. She melts me every second of every day! I am so in love with her! I have never felt this way!

She is seven weeks old now... She has started to smile which melts me. My momma heart becomes complete mush when I see that little girl. She has started to make little sounds and it always leaves me wanting more. I want to hear it again! I want to see her lips push out that sound. She is constantly wanting to hold her head up and look around. She has beautiful brown eyes. I feel like she is trying to take everything in all the time. She wants to learn about her world and her life. She loves baths and smiles so much during them. She will even fall asleep.

My favorite time with her is on the changing table. She gets completely still and just looks up at me with her beautiful eyes. We stop and stare and look at each other. Like we are trying to tell each other a big secret. Then she will do this huge grin and I just want to take it all in. Every little moment. I want to remember. I swear I feel my heart grow more and more every day! Just looking at her I melt! Really you are ours. God chose us for you!

I feel like Matt and I have a HUGE responsibility. We are not only raising her for God and ourselves, but for her birth mom. I want Nella to know how loved she is! She has so MUCH love in her life....not only from her momma angel (birth momma) and us but all our family and friends. I cannot tell you how much it means to me to watch those around her with our girl! They MELT! It is not just me!!! I love to watch people hold her and talk to her! I love to watch their faces light up with happiness.....what a joy she is! A blessing for not only us, her momma angel, but everyone in our life! I am in awe!

I am loving being her momma! Being a mom, is so much more rewarding than I could have ever dreamed! She is angel sent from heaven truly! I feel like I am on cloud 9 every single day of my life! Thank you God for loving us, momma angel, and her so much!!! Thank you for bringing us together!!!

Love you all,

The Spencer family

Matt, Janelle, and Miss Nella