Friday, July 23, 2010
She drinks her little bottle and then we snuggle. We snuggle in the darkness and quiet. It is different than during the day when it is so bright and busy. Where I feel like I have a million things to do, but I just want to sit with her and sing and talk. But at night we just sit there in the darkness and rock. I love the time. I could put her down right away, but I just savor this moment with her. It is crazy to think in 10 months she will be busy and all over the place and we probably won't have this snuggle time. There in the darkness, I think (dream) of what our lives will be like together. I think Mothers and daughters have a special bond and I am so excited about what our relationship will be like. I think about tea parties, dress up days, Mommy and Nella dates, and make believe play. I dream about girl talk and her having her first boy crisis. I hope she trusts me enough to turn to me and want a mom's opinion. I know there will be days when I will not be her favorite person. I think about those too. I think about sweet sixteen party, her first date, prom dress shopping, senior pictures.....I am so excited about this season of my life.....but for now we just snuggle and I smell her sweet little baby smell.....and enjoy the moment of the 3 AM feeding.....
These pictures are from her newborn photo shoot.....they melt me and especially the last one....I think it describes how we all feel....amazingly blessed and SO in LOVE with each other!!!!!
God is so GOOD!!!
Posted by Janelle at 12:28 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Our little love is 2 months old today! Wow!!! I cannot believe it! She is so beautiful. Nella smiles so much and is such as sweet little girl. I love my little morning girl. She gets up everyday at 6 am! I love walking into her room and finding this bright eyed little girl so excited to see me! She is wanting to hold her head up all the time. Today, Miss Nella and I went to target. I thought I would put her in the Ergo to carry her around....nope, she wanted out so she could see where she was and what was going on...so cute! I have loved this past two months with my little girl. I am so thankful she is here! I am getting sad that summer is coming to an end as I wil have to go back to school....I have missed my students, but so enjoyed my time with my little girl. Nella is truly a joy! Matt and I are so blessed.
Things I (Nella) have accomplished in two months:
Posted by Janelle at 1:09 PM
Thursday, July 15, 2010
I have waited to write this post because I knew it would be SO emotional......well here goes! As a little girl, I dreamed about becoming a mom. I was the little girl who constantly wanted to play house, took my baby dolls to the grocery store, and always wanted to hold the babies in my family. I loved babysitting. I loved being with kids! I dreamed of being a mom of having a little one who needed me or I could love with all my heart......Nella Grace is EVEN MORE THAN I COULD HAVE EVER DREAMED. Being her mom is the most amazing gift God could have ever given me. I have no idea why he chose me to be her mom....but we are SO SO SO blessed....God is so good! He is amazing!!!
I feel like I am in a dream every day of my life. I want more and more time with her! I feel like any minute I will wake up and she will be gone! I cannot believe she is REALLY here! She is our girl! She is the most beautiful little girl. She melts me every second of every day! I am so in love with her! I have never felt this way!
She is seven weeks old now... She has started to smile which melts me. My momma heart becomes complete mush when I see that little girl. She has started to make little sounds and it always leaves me wanting more. I want to hear it again! I want to see her lips push out that sound. She is constantly wanting to hold her head up and look around. She has beautiful brown eyes. I feel like she is trying to take everything in all the time. She wants to learn about her world and her life. She loves baths and smiles so much during them. She will even fall asleep.
My favorite time with her is on the changing table. She gets completely still and just looks up at me with her beautiful eyes. We stop and stare and look at each other. Like we are trying to tell each other a big secret. Then she will do this huge grin and I just want to take it all in. Every little moment. I want to remember. I swear I feel my heart grow more and more every day! Just looking at her I melt! Really you are ours. God chose us for you!
I feel like Matt and I have a HUGE responsibility. We are not only raising her for God and ourselves, but for her birth mom. I want Nella to know how loved she is! She has so MUCH love in her life....not only from her momma angel (birth momma) and us but all our family and friends. I cannot tell you how much it means to me to watch those around her with our girl! They MELT! It is not just me!!! I love to watch people hold her and talk to her! I love to watch their faces light up with happiness.....what a joy she is! A blessing for not only us, her momma angel, but everyone in our life! I am in awe!
I am loving being her momma! Being a mom, is so much more rewarding than I could have ever dreamed! She is angel sent from heaven truly! I feel like I am on cloud 9 every single day of my life! Thank you God for loving us, momma angel, and her so much!!! Thank you for bringing us together!!!
Love you all,
The Spencer family
Matt, Janelle, and Miss Nella
Posted by Janelle at 6:43 PM