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HI there! Sorry it has been so long...life has been a little crazy on our end. I guess lately I have felt that with school, masters, life, home, and hope for baby I am juggling a lot of balls right now. I am trying to not drop one but somedays it has hard. I feel exhausted most days and overworked. I have officially 6 weeks left of my masters and literally it is sucking the life out of me. Always so much to do...one thing is done another is piled on. I have lately felt really weak and having no strength. I want to read baby books and dream of baby's room, but then I can't because I have lesson plans to do, IEPs to write, 5 chapters in this class to read, 5 chapters and responses in the other class....just won't stop you know. But yesterday due to the gorgeous weather...I decided I needed a break.....

I went outside and cut away all the dead stuff in our flower beds. There is something so therapeutic about being outside and working on landscaping. It was so neat to see the little green plants that were under all that dead. It made me hopeful...that with spring brings new life. It makes me hopeful that maybe our baby is coming and that under all this pain, confusion, waiting...there is our baby ready to spring into our lives.

I have felt God talking to me lately. Some days are hard and I am tired of not knowing when our child is arriving and tired of waiting. I just want our nursery to have our little one there. I just want an answer of when. One morning.. I was crying and praying to God for strength to help get me through this because I was feeling so weak. It was crazy, but that day one of my friends, Theresa, brought in a card and baby book. She said she had been thinking about me and the card said that she was proud of my strength and that it must be hard to not know when our baby is coming. I was amazed because God did that. He knew I needed to hear it. It meant so much to me!

I know it hasn't been long since we put in our adoption paperwork, but some days are GREAT and I am feeling full of strength, excitement, where other days are hard. Please keep our birth mom, baby, Matt, and I in your prayers. I know God has his timing and our baby will come when it is suppose to. I know right now probably would be hard with the ending of my masters, but I just want an answer or clue of when. Thank you all for all your support again.

Matt and I are blessed to have some many people who love us! WE cannot ever thank you enough for all the gifts we have received and prayers! We love you all so much!

Love ya!