Day 81

Wow! It has been a little while since I have written you all. Things are good on our our end. Actually more than good. We are blessed beyond belief. Since writing our letter to family and friends, we have raised 2,000. Matt and I are shocked at the amount of love and support we have received. We will never ever be able to thank you all enough. WE are so appreciative of the prayers we are receiving too. Every day someone comes up to us or emails us to say we are praying for you and hopefully your baby will be home soon. That means the world to us. Each night and through out the day, we pray that God will be with our birth mom and baby. It amazes me that God knows who this person is and knows our child already. How awesome is He? What an amazing love He has for us? I am in complete awe.

I am loving getting ready for our baby. Some days are hard for me because I am tired of waiting. I am tired of wondering when I will be a mom. I am so excited to be a mom. My mom and dad helped us out in a huge way and bought us a crib. It was so cute seeing Matt put it together. He was SO excited and it truly melted my heart. He said he couldn't wait to get home that day from work to put it together. He told me not to come up until it was all put together. He ended up needing my help, but I am glad he did because us working on putting the crib together was an awesome thing. It was neat to just take a step back and see how committed we are to this little one. It didn't take us long. We then rearranged the nursery (oh the nursery I LOVE saying that word) I never thought I would be able to say that...oh it melts me! We still have to get decorating things, but I was kinda hoping to wait until I know if we are going to be given a boy or girl. There is a deep part of me that really wants a girl...after all I am such a girlie girl, but I know a little boy will melt my heart as well.

I also found a great deal on a rug. Natalie, Mia, and I spent a day together for Natalie's birthday. We went to Anthropologie. I found a rug that was originally 348 for 69 dollars. This rug and I were meant to be. So cute...it is all colors and has pom pom yarn balls on it. So adorable.

Now walking by the nursery (giggle) makes my heart race with excitement. Oh I cannot wait to have a baby and have a baby sleeping in that room. Sometimes I go in there and sit down in the middle of the floor and just pray. Pray that it will be soon. That God is protecting our child. That the birth mom will go on to lead an amazing life and know that she gave her child to a family that loves and adores them. I love to just sit in there and just dream of what I want for our child and think about memories that will happen with our baby. I know it might sound corny, but sitting in that room gives me huge peace and joy. I know God is there with me! I can feel him! Please God bring baby spencer home soon! Please!

I cannot wait to see Matt has a dad. Today we helped out in the church nursery. We had 8 little ones with us under 2. He was adorable with the kids. I found myself just watching him interact with the kids. It made me so excited for what is yet to come. How lucky I am to have him in my life. He is such a wonderful, loving husband. He truly puts my needs before his own and seeing him set up that crib made me realize how truly excited he is for our baby. It makes me smile just thinking about him as a dad. He will be awesome!

I am attaching some photos of the crib. Matt's official helper (Gypsy), rug, bassinet Matt finished painting, and our hope bear that my friend Kate gave us in the crib, and an adorable light switch cover I got. It is not truly set up yet, because well it is not finished...but we are making progress.

Love always,
Janelle