I find myself emotional lately. I feel overwhelmed by God's love for our family. I feel like he has truly filled my heart that was once aching so much to now full with love, that I am bursting at moment. When I look at these two, I feel so incredibly blessed and amazed that I was chosen to be their mother. I am the one God chose for these two angels and that thought humbles me to the core.
It seems so long ago that I was once sitting on our office (now Knox's nursery) flooring sobbing, crying out to God! Begging him to let me be a mom. Promising I would give my all. I would love with them with every ounce of me. That I would be devoted and show them His love. I can still feel that pain even after years, it is so raw and still so real. It was not an easy road to get here. But one I wouldn't change for a moment. One that I know taught me to trust and love God.
This Christmas at our home, I wanted it to be magical and it truly was. We had snowman pancakes in the morning, put our reindeer food and cookies for Santa out, received a special book from Santa in the mail, watched my babies face dance with amazement over all the new fun things Santa and Mommy and daddy gave them, ate a yummy italian dinner, watched my sweet girl sing her heart out as she sang Happy Birthday to Jesus, did a snowman bath, and then watched Rudolph in Christmas jammies! Wow, it seemed what I hoped and begged for had come true! But the whole time, I just felt amazed! Amazed that these two beautiful sweet children are here! God truly is amazing and such an amazing Father! I am not sure why he chose me, but I thank him every day! I thank him even for the pain to get me here, because the pain and the confusion of this journey helped me realize the vastness of God's love and grace. I see it everyday when I look into their sweet faces.
9 months old
Oh he is truly a joy! He has a contagious smile and that makes everyone around him face burst into the biggest smile their mouths could honestly make. He is a smiley, happy, sweet boy! He enjoys building with blocks, hearing stories, and discovering his world around him. He has a sweet heart and truly admires and adores his sister. His face lights up when she is around. He crawls and smiles the whole time he is going. Knox loves his baba and loves his baby food! He truly loves Mickey Mouse and his face lights up with smile and his feet kick like crazy when he sees him! He is my little miracle and he melts my momma heart every single day!
My dearest little Nella (Roo)
2 1/2 years old
This girl has taught me so much about myself even at only two years old. She has taught me graciousness, compassion, and what love truly looks like. Nella has such a sweet heart and truly wants to help and love on anyone and any animal. It amazes me to see love pour out of her. She adores her little brother and truly wants to help him in anyway. Today, she even asked me to turn off her Doc McStuffins (her fave show) because we should turn on Mickey because Knoxie really likes it mommy. Seriously what a giver already at such a young age. Nella has the most expressive eyes! Her eyes can melt you in a moment. She is dancer, singer, and girly miss! She loves to dress up and truly is a princess through and through! She is kind and loving! We are so in love with this little angel.
My sweet little angel bugs! I love this two with all my heart.
Our Christmas card this year, had one word...blessed! I feel so blessed everyday to have these two call me mommy! Sometimes I get so down on myself because I want more time with them and I just want to soak it all in and being a working momma makes it hard because my time is limited, but I have quality time with them and I truly treasure the moments and smiles they bring to my face. I couldn't ask for sweeter loves and I love my cute husband that I get to share this life with! I find myself tonight just thanking God for His love and thanking him for bringing these two into our life!